Wednesday, May 20, 2009

hatie kecil

suatu hari
suara kecil berkata-kata
terkunci
tiada siapa mendengar
menghilangkn diri
ke alam fantasi

Hati kecil
selalu tertanya
mengapa begini

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Kampung Tanjung - Kampung Ku yg Kecil

 
my father.. kiri" 
  
  
  
  
gayattt... 
  
  
my mother.. kiri jua 
  
 
  
terbang!! 
  
sapuu lagii 
  
control la tuu 
  
  
sedia! 
  
hijrah itu pengorbanan! 
  
  
semangat! 
  
ayamm... 
 
  
peace! 
  
mulih suda... 
  
jawab ketua! 
 
Gotong Royong 17 mei 2009 
- mesra bersama penduduk kampung!!

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Sahabat PPDa PETRONAS Programme

i dont really like to take part in program like this but accepted my friends invitation to join, and i thought it would be fun... to start the story, we, the SMKL participator was late because our school cadets use the bus first, so we have to wait until 7.30 for the bus.



Well we should be arriving at the place, SMSL, at 7.30 for registration, but we were late, so late.. and all of us were assign to different group. right after we step our foot at the school... My name wasnt in the list, but i have some luck that day cuz some participator cant made it and i was assign in group 14...

i was with 2 form two student at first, but they were assign to different group because of lack of member in other group. So, i was alone at last, and that make me sick. No worries, cuz i meet someone friendly at the time, but didnt ask her name, she was from SMKPBedaun.

We have ice breaking in group after we move in to the hall. Every group have one facilitator, and our group  is  Dzul....nie, well, i cant remember his full name, and he was helping, but since he is the facilitator leader, so he slightly, abandon us sometimes. He star the ice breaking followed by me, and the a boy in form 2, named Faiz, next is, Mira, and then Aishah, then Mar, Bia, Zul, Qila, Zati, Alex, and Theressa. Thats all i can remember, our group have 14 participator if im not wrong.

After that, we have some "speech" from SMKMutiara's counselor, it was fun though. and then we get to  our breakfast!!!! we eat in the dining hall. it was big, and every table was named for student who have some kind of "rank?". Two of my friend was transfered to this school, they were demerit for misspend electric?? My god why would the student stay in this cage-like-hostel school... i would never enslave myself to this kind of school...  NO.

okay now... then we have our LDK / work in group. and it was to act... thankfully it just in front of my group... it goes like this... the first person will have to memorize 8 text given to her, and then she will act in front of us with mouth shut, miming!.. After that, each of us will do the same thing as her... thats mean we have to memorize it as well... and its about fish....
1.lacerate fish?
2.feeding baby
3.drive out a cat
4.cook the fish
??? ops i forgot this one
5.talking with cellphone while cooking
6.serve the fish
7.listening to radio

and then we have another activity, this time whole participator will watch it... it was BLOWING....... CHICKEN FEATHER.... meniup bulu ayam!!! the longest feather on air is the winner... every group only sent out 5 members.. it was fun.. i never play it...

so much for that... there is more actually but im tired now.. so

Good Day....

Friday, May 15, 2009

Fire!!!!

trajedi ini berlaku pagi kelmarin sehingga ke petang. meremang bulu roma ath apabila melihat asap hitam yang terlampau banyak... first, ath ingatkan sebuah rumah yang terbakar, well ath salah... beratus rumah terbakar dalam trajedi 14 Mei ini. ath  dapat melihat sendiri keadaan kampung muslim sekarang, walaupun dari jauh, tapak yang sebelum ni menjadi rumah kepada warga Filipin majoritinya, hitam tiada lagi penghuni. On the way home, ath dan kakak ath terpaksa mununggu sekurang-kurangnya 10 minit untuk pulang kerumah yang dulu tak sampai 1 minit perjalanan... jalan sangat sesak sebab the main road dah di tutup.. Hari ni, ath mendapat cerita dari kawan, salah seorang kawan ath menjadi mangsa, tiada satu harta benda yang diselamatkan, baju, buku, semuanya musnah, dan hari ni, hari kedua bagi mid year exam, kawan tersebut tak hadir kesekolah.. rasa sedih pula mendengar kisah rakan ath tu.. walaupun tak ramai yang ath nampak dalam kesedihan, tapi macam rasa sedih pula bila difikirkan. ruamah mereka tiada sentimental value, itulah yang menyedihkan......

ada yang bertanya rumah siapa??
ath tidaklah rapat dengan rakan ini, hanya rakan berkongsi cerita, ath memanggilnya dengan nama adilah dan kami baru sahaja berkenalan. dalam 400 mangsa ath hanya mengenali seorang. hmm ada lagi ka rakan yang menjadi mangsa?.

Good Day

Thursday, May 14, 2009

lost wishes

i wish for victory
glory of my days
but when the war start
my soldier left me
i've lost

i wish for happiness
smiles from heart to heart
but when i feel so vain
my smiles were fake
i'm lost

i wish for freedom
as free as dove
but when the cage open
my wings are hurt
and i'm lost

i wish for wisdom
greater then them's
but when i feel so small
i'm not enough to handle
and i have lost

so lost

Monday, May 11, 2009

Mama

i remember,
that time when i feel so trouble
try to kill myself
crying, in pressure, sadness
you were mad, scare
i hold a knife,
seeing your face
make me throw it away
just by looking to you

i remember,
the time when im in trouble
in pain, my fault
crying, hurt, frustrated
you were mad, sad
i lay on the bed,
while you nursing me
make me feel so sorry
for troubling

i remember,
the time i make trouble
scare to be left at night
crying, no, i dont
you were
but i never hear it
and you come back home
with new little sister
and smile at your face

-ath

http://ath-melancholy.blogspot.com/

Mimpi

malam ini
sunyi, tiada berteman
ketakutan mengawal perasaan
keseorangan, dalam kesedihan

dunia fantasi yang menakutkan
dunia yang sangat di inginkan
dunia yang tiada kawalan
mengawal seseorang
kaku, tidak berkuasa

malam sepi bertukar ngeri
jeritan halus tidak berhenti
tubuh merasa kesakitan
ketakutan tidak pernah reda

malam ini
suara memangil nama
menyedarkan kembali
ke realiti

ath

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Mama

i remember,
that time when i feel so trouble
try to kill myself
crying, in pressure, sadness
you were mad, scare
i hold a knife,
seeing your face
make me throw it away
just by looking to you

i remember,
the time when im in trouble
in pain, my fault
crying, hurt, frustrated
you were mad, sad
i lay on the bed,
while you nursing me
make me feel so sorry
for troubling

i remember,
the time i make trouble
scare to be left at night
crying, no, i dont
you were
but i never hear it
and you come back home
with new little sister
with smile in your face

ath

Friday, May 08, 2009

Minggu Sain dan Teknologi!!!!

oleh kerana faiz dengan muka yang semacam.. bertanya kenapa SAYA[bagi hari ini sahaja] bloging dalam bahasa inggeris, jadi saya pun bercadang untuk post subjek hari ni dalam bahasa Melayu. sekolah saya telah mengadakan minggu Sain dan Teknologi perinkat sekolah SMK Labuan bermula pada hari isnin lalu.

Sempena minggu ni, sekolah telah menberi kami 3 soalan setiap hari pada perhimpunan pagi. Oleh kerana hari ni merupakan hari kemuncak bagi minggu Sain dan Teknologi, pameran telah dibuat oleh pelajar-pelajar yang telibat. Hanya dua pelajar yang terlibat dari kelas kami iaitu... Izzuddin dengan roketnya dan Siow Shung Tian dengan kereta F1... malangnya saya tak dapat nak jenguk mereka berdua...

SAYA dan rakan sekelas hanya datang ke pamearan di makmal Biologi, Fizik, dan Kimia. Kami pergi ke makmal Fizik dulu dan memang suasana..... sempit dan sesak.. saya diPAKSA untuk mencuba mengapungkan bola ping pong dengan hairdryer. Best, sampai bola tu ditiup oleh Cikgu Syuhud.. ya cikgu yang membawa kami ke pameran tersebut. Selepas saya dan Faiz tersedar yang kami ditinggalkan, kami move on to the next Lab. Makmal Kimia!  

First Saya menengar tentang kejadian baby..... and twins.... dan kembar siam oleh kakak kepada Fasyah iaitu Kakak Fatin... TQ!... sedang saya menuju kehadapan untuk test tekanan darah, saya ternampak la si MEL dengan sahabat andainya sedang melihat tikus!! comelnye.. NOOO.. its dead already! sudah pun dibedah! hanya jantungnya yang masih lagi bergerak...

pastu saya termanpak Shafiq sedang meneropong sesuatu dengan microscopenya! jadi saya pun turut menyibuk... sedang syok melihat amoeba. tiba-tiba, Pengetua datang dari belakang... apa lagi.. saya pun ketepi sedikit.... OoO!! Kamera!! nooo..... minta-minta tiada muka saya di dalam gambar... "dua kali lagi tuuhh org tu ambil gambar..... ishhkkk ambil gambar nda bagi tau!" 
Jadi saya pun meneruskan journey to the ujian tekanan darah.... berbaris wei.... okay my turn....... tit tit tit tighter and tighter..... "eh bahaye nie" nya ustaz... "sampai macam nie?"  @~@ tuuuuuuuuuuuutttt... my blood pressure was low!!.... owwhh!! "meh ustaz try pulak" pastu saya pun pergi cek BMI..... alhamdulillah its turn out to be normal....  want to see the result




jeng jeng.....

after the test we've been shown a video..  video  tentang kucing, kucing mengandung .. tidak diketahui samada mati/pengsan dan akan di operate!! oleh kerana masa yang tidak mengizinkan saya terpaksa stop melihat video tu sebab masa persekolahan hampir tamat. in that time only me, Effy and feb that left.... so saya pun turut serta mereka untuk pergi ke makmal Kimia.... kami hanya meihat beberapa video tentang Mg, BOOMM, magnetic liquid dan lain-lain...... saya pulang dgn sedikit pengethuan hari ni....


wei mengapa macam mengarang karangan ni kian?.. bari ijab bahasa nya.. nda ku mau lagi menulis macam ani ehh... klasik style la... cuba len kali.. yang macam dalam prosa klasik tuuu...

bah...

Good Day!

Thursday, May 07, 2009

Can you hear me

i've just realize im not as quite girl as i before.... this year i feel little comfortable and more confident to speak out to people.. but still, i dont know why im still felling lost, lonely and my heart breaking day by day, the scar was cut off again... it never healed by anything or anyone.. their understanding was fading, never even tried to understand me and my feelings.. yes they were my friends, even my dearest friend never understand me..  make me wonder, why in the earth they befriend me? i wish i could speak out my feelings, but i cant. I've never have anyone beside me, listening to my problems, understand my feelings. No. It's hurt. I tried to be alone, just alone, and it's still hurt me.. no one knows... why is that. because no one tried to understand, they just want to be understand.. just them. I maybe dont know them well thats why im like this, thats what i thought. But how could i even know them if they dont let me? they dont even listening to me. My words was like nothing, they cant hear it anymore.

Wednesday, May 06, 2009

MikuMikuDance

or in short form MMD was a choreography tool for a 3D model of  Hatsune Miku in version 1.30 and multi 3D model of Vocaloids and UTAUloids. it was published by VocaloidPromotionVideoProject [VPVP]. i downloaded the english version [that its version 1.30] last year, and thats mean i can only use Miku model...well its still okay... but i still downloaded MMD ver.4.00 and its all in Japanese 0o0....Since im not VOCALOID user so i cant make them sing, so i tried to use MMVoice, and i failed...>.<.... it was in Japanese.. I'm looking for the accessories now neither in .pmd/.x/.vac.. i went to the wiki pages [Japanese] and got something but some file that i want was already deleted... well wish me a good luck...

this is one of my favorites MMD video


Video by jut1205 i like her MMD video

VPVP official website: http://www.geocities.jp/higuchuu4/
VPVP@Wiki : http://www6.atwiki.jp/vpvpwiki/
MikuDan [downloadable tutorial]: http://mikudan.blog120.fc2.com/blog-entry-99.html
VOCALOID : http://www.crypton.co.jp/mp/pages/prod/vocaloid/
UTAU : http://utau2008.web.fc2.com/
UTAU@Wiki : http://www20.atwiki.jp/utaou/

Sunday, May 03, 2009

are your Friendship in good state

Why do we need friends? Friend is someone that can help we shape who we are as a persons, that's why we need friend. What is friendship?, ladies and gentleman, Friendship is our concern to our friends which might reasonably understood as a kind of love. I love my friends. But loving our friends is imperfect without a bond of trust. Yes trust. What is trust? Why should we trust our friends? Emotionally, it is where you expose your vulnerabilities to people, but believing they will not take advantage of your openness. Ladies and gentleman, A person who we call friend is not our foe or rival, we must trust our friend because undoubtedly they were central to our lives and this is because they who will shape us as we will be concerning about them.

Ladies and Gentlemen,

As I tell you before loving our friends without trusting them is imperfect for a good friendship. Why did I say that? When we love our friends, we will eventually concern about them, about their life, feelings and health, whether in physically or mentally. We will listen to their problems and help them. But then, if we do not trust them as our friend, we will be the one who have the most problems, which is because we will fell ignored and rejected and sad. This will happen if we did not trust our friend, we will be afraid to have a conversation with them, a conversation about our life. We will see our friends as rival as we did not telling the truth. We will be lying to them about our self or faking our self to be accepted by them. And mostly we will start to dislike them as we fell ignored and rejected by them.

When this happen, our standpoint and self-confident will fall, this is because a friend is the most close and intimate person after or before our family. We share everything with them, secrets, stories or activities. We laugh and cry with them, and then after we put aside our feeling of trust to them, we will start to fall apart, weather in work or education.

So, ladies and gentleman, the bad relationship of friendship could ruin our life from good to bad. As we only need to learn to trust and love our friend in the same time to hinder the bad relationship and have a good friendship.

ath 

Saturday, May 02, 2009

I Play Games [Virtual Villagers 3: The Secret City]


Virtual Villagers 3: The Secret City


i found this game, somewhere in my pc. i dont know who bought it but it sure are addicting the players. i already play the first version online at the gamehouse.com and didnt complete it but i never played the second and it sound interesting.

CHAPTER 1: A few lucky survivors flee from a volcanic eruption. After days of drifting in the sea, they land onto the shore of a mysterious island. As they look around, they beheld what appeared to be an empty and isolated paradise! Maybe they would have a chance after all..





CHAPTER 2: Follow two curious, determined villagers as they make their way into the darkest recesses of the cave that had long taunted them. Plunge with them into dazzling sunlight and mist, as a magnificent waterfall at once cuts them off from their friends and family and brings them face to face with ... children!




CHAPTER 3: Embark on a new journey with a group of villagers in search of a new part of the island to populate. Land on the hidden shores of the northern side of Isola and explore what was once a secret city. Who lived here before? Where have they gone? What is the secret of Isola?




official site: http://www.virtualvillagers.com/
official forum: http://www.ldwforums.com/ubbthreads/ubbthreads.php

Friday, May 01, 2009

its END!

i had no patient in waiting my sis friend to reformat this notebook.. so in the third day i ask... well.. i am frustrated, so i do it myself and its easy.... my father buy this notebook last year in an auction. The system was all in window. as for me, whenever i buy something, i've always read the guide.. and then i know this notebook wasnt in the real system.. soo it gets crush [ that is after 3 month] and have viruses that infecting my cellphone and camera! and after several month no one can turn on the notebook... my fourth sis borrow her friends dvd drive since we do not have any, and my third will try to find friend that want to reformat this notebook, and its bad for me cuz i really dont have any patient to wait so i do it myself. i had never reformat any computer except for my cellphone memory card after it was infected by this notebook. and now im happy to use this family notebook, and its in Linpus Linux Lite. but one thing did frustrated me, this area only have one WLAN that i can use, and sometimes i cant access the web.

Good Day Spidey!!

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